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As Synod 2023 came to its rather unceremonious end last summer, one of my friends, a fellow delegate, said to me as we were packing up to leave, āWe need to spend the next year in prayer and fasting for our denomination. Thatās the only way weāre going to be able to find a way forwardāif weāre willing to seek Godās face in prayer and fasting.ā He then invited me to start fasting with him, once a week, for a year, until Synod 2024 to try to listen to and discern Godās leading for us and our denomination.
Now, Iāll be honest; I havenāt historically liked fasting. While I dabbled a bit with it in seminary when a group of us tried a number of different spiritual disciplines for different reasons, I didnāt find it very helpful, and so, in the time since, I havenāt fasted much.
But recently Iāve found myself exploring it as a discipline again. Put simply, weāve been talking about the spiritual disciplines a lot recently at the church I serve, and so, sort of against my will, Iāve found myself reading and learning about fasting for the first time in over a decade. And one of the things Iām (re)learning is that fasting is one of the most helpful disciplines for listening to God and discerning his will during difficult or divided times.
Put simply (and this is something we see repeatedly in Scripture), fasting is a discipline that, in its very nature, is designed to help us empty ourselves out, so we can be filled with God instead. Itās a discipline that opens us up, hollows us out (literally), and makes us more receptive to hearing Godās voice. Thatās how Scripture regularly talks about fasting, and thatās how Christians have used it over the centuries too. And so, in the midst of our current denominational disagreements and division, fasting seems a more than appropriate discipline to engage in.
As a result, and somewhat against my will, I decided to join my friend in his offer to fast and pray. Despite my dislike of fasting, Iāve been consistently doing it now for six months, ever since synod. Itās normally just once a week, often Mondays, for about 24 hours, but Iām trying to fast and pray to seek Godās face, hear from him, and discern where heās leading me, our congregation, and our broader denomination as whole (in fact, Iām fasting right now, as I write this).
And Iāll be honest: Sometimes I feel like I āget somethingā from fasting. I feel like it helps me discern clear leading, guiding, or a word from God that he wants me to hear. Other times, though, I just feel hungry. And yet, on the whole, Iām finding it a helpful discipline for tuning into God, hearing from him, and discerning his will. And I do feel like part of what heās helped me discern are some things about our denomination, the biggest of which is that Godās still God, heās still in control, and I can rest assured that, no matter what Synod 2024 or the future of our denomination might hold, that will still be true.
And I would like to invite you, all of you reading who are willing, to fast too. I would like to invite you to join my friend and I (and others too, Iām sure) in fasting ahead of Synod 2024. Like my friend said as we packed up at the end of Synod 2023, we need to seek Godās face and listen to him right now in our denomination. We always need to do that. But it seems we especially need to do it now.
I need to be clear, though: This is an invitation. Fasting is not a requirement of the Christian life. Itās never commanded in Scripture. And itās not, like the spiritual disciplines can all too often become, a pious imperative for the ātruly holy.ā Thatās when the spiritual disciplines tend to run aground and become more harmful than helpful for the Christian life.
But if youāre willing, I would like to invite you to join in practicing this discipline. And I invite you in the hope that you, too, will find it enriching to your individual relationship with God, empowering for your prayers, and, ahead of what likely will be some major decisions and potential changes in our denomination, comforting in the reminder that God is Lord, heās in control, and nothing can change that. If nothing else, at least weāll find ourselves less filled with ourselves and other things and more filled with God. And thatās always a good thing.
If youād like additional resources on fasting, Richard Fosterās book The Celebration of Discipline has an especially helpful chapter on how to approach this. Iād also recommend Lauren Winnerās chapter on fasting in her book Mudhouse Sabbath and Adele Ahlberg Calhounās chapter in the Spiritual Disciplines Handbook.
About the Author
Brandon Haan serves as the senior pastor at Ivanrest Church in Grandville, Mich. He lives in Grandville with his wife, Sarah, and their three children, Levi, Titus, and Audrey.